My personal Testimony

Everything started with me living a very sinful life. And if God wouldn't have safed me, who knows what would have happend to me. Probably I would still live in sin, fear and hopelessness. At that time I felt very lonely, without a calling and I steady had to struggle for life. I had nobody to trust in, but unfortunately I didn't know that back then. So I always trusted the wrong people. I didn't know anything about God, Jesus, the Bible, belief and the Kingdom of God. And I always said - I just believe in what I can see and touch. I didn't believe in God, he was a stranger for me. I couldn't understand how he, if he really exist, could let so much misery and unrighteousness happen in this world.

Although I've learned in school, religion class, about the Bible and I also got baptized at the age of 5, but I got raised anything else than christian like.

At the end of 2004 God started to work on me. As I found myself in the worst phase of my life and I thought I coudn't make my dream, to be an Au-Pair in the USA come true, was God giving me the strenght and opened doors for me in which I didn't believe anymore. He made it possible for me to go to the USA as a Au-Pair. The time had come in January 2005, I flew to the USA.

So I was living in sin until the age of 26 and did what I wanted.

Even if that what happend there was not comparing with my dream a 100%, it still was God's plan, to strenghen me and to build my personality for that what was coming ahead of me. I still was a rough diamond that had to be polished. I started to find interest in God.

Through music I was getting inspired to belief. Yet everything was still very dubious for me. After 4 partly dissapionting months I returned to Germany and started a regular job. Yet I didn't want to just give up the "Au-Pair-dream". I always had a strong will, same in this case. So I was searching for a host family on my own, without a Au-Pair Agency.

After searching a while I met my future husband online (on a Nanny search site), he was a believing christian. He was in need of a Nanny for his at this time 2 1/2 yr. old son. After a short time we agreed and to make a long story short, I flew back to the states in march 2006 (Portland OR).

The Nanny became the girlfriend, the girlfriend became the fiancée and the fiancée became the wife in Sept. 2006. He turned me into a believer and taught me a lot about God, Jesus, the Bible, about christian lifestyles and a sinfree life. For this I will thank him forever, even through our marriage didn't work out.

I've got safed in 2006 at the "Life Christian Center" in Portland OR and accepted Jesus as my Lord and Saviour. I left my husband in Dec. 2006 after a very stressful and painful time. I have to admit, I wasn't that innocent but mainly we were just not meant for eachother, we were too diffrent.

I came back to Germany on Dec. 14th 2006 and I was praying to God that he should give me a church, simular to the one I was in in the states. Because I don't really like our german cold and quiet stone churches, where you can't shout and praise God like I was used to do. I love the Gospel/Praise & Worship Team, to be heartly and warm welcomed in a non-denominational church.

One day after I came back to Germany I wanted to go downtown shopping. I passed one building with the tram, that once was a VW Dealer and Workshop, but now it was named "Jesus World Outreach Center" will all kinds of country flags around the building. I was wondering what that might be. On my way back I decided to stop by and go inside to ask.

A african Lady heartly welcomed me, hugged me and explained to me that this is a american church for all nationalities. She asked me if I wanted to come to the Christmas Celebration Service on Dec. the 17th 06. I went to the Service and I was overwhelmed and happy so that I coudn't hold back my tears. I was thankful to God, I have found my church home, my ministry.

I've got baptized on Dec. 31st 06 (see picture gallery) and 3 days later at Bible Study I started to speak in tongues, I was filled with the Holy Spirit.

Since than I went to this Church on a regular basis, if possible for me on wednesdays to Bible Study and to Sunday Service. Also I am a Volunteer in Computer Graphics.

God became the center point of my life.

I trust and love the Lord with everything that is in me. Even through I am not perfect, but I try to live a sinfree life and to obey God's Word.

Since a few months now, I understand God's calling for my life "Bring mankind into God's Kingdom". It's not always that easy, because there is so much evil in this world, it takes a lots of patience and strenght, but I do what God wants me to do.

I love to praise him, sing to him and to worship him because he is worthy to be lifted up high. Because he knew me even before I was born. My life rests in his hands and I have to treat myself right because that also makes God happy.

I want to live a fulfilled and obedient life for, in and with God.

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